"Change is the only constant."

I realize that most people would not consider me "laid back." I don't easily go with the flow; I have always either encouraged, created, or fought "the flow." Individuals like my brother or my Uncle Tom "go with the flow," in a way that makes them like-able and easy-going. But I like to plan and organize and materialize grand scenarios of what I think is the best decision. And it's not always the best way. I'm stubborn and opinionated, but I also have a big heart and emotions that can sometimes overcome me in inopportune times. I often hate allowing change to have its inevitable strength, yet I welcome it when it suits me. I seek change when it comes to promoting an open mind, as my many educational transfers/moves across states have been extraordinarily enlightening. But when a change is out of my immediate control, I can feel threatened and inferior. I can fight without reason, but with passion. I should have become a human rights lawyer, as my mom often remarks, in that I cannot stand a breach of injustice or humanity. I feel sick to my stomach over events in the news, and I draw upon my background in political science when I feel I have no other choice. But ultimately change is constant. Nothing stays the same for long. I won't be a restaurant server for very much longer, and I won't have just myself to worry about for the majority of my life. My goal is to embrace the changes that encircle me, to realize that I can plan for the future, to have an opinion and to care, but there are many things that are not up to me. I will fight the battles that I can fight, and endure what I must endure. In the end what matters most is who you love, what you love to do, and what your heart believes in.